M told me today that if I go to abu Dhabi, he doubts he will be able to wait for me. That he has been thinking, and whenever someone goes away, the couple breaks up. So he has been hanging on too much. And he cant be the only one fighting for us. He said he was done fighting and my decision is my own.
Tonight he told me to remember that while I think that untill I have made a decision, I have both worlds, to him it feels like he has nothing. He said every night he goes to sleep, wondering if he'll have a girlfriend the next day.

I told him I dont think I can stay. What would I be staying for?